It is time to MOVE ON

Nothing is constant, nothing is permanent. Change is evitable and we just have to accept it and move on. These sorts of experiences are constantly appearing in my life. Since moving from the Malaysia to the US, I have lost contact with many of my friends. At first, we vow to keep in touch even though we are an ocean apart, but I have to admit it is hard to maintain a strong friendship no matter how close the both of us were before. One of the main reasons for the weakening of the friendship could be due to the different experiences that we go through in life and as these experiences varies so do our goals changes.

I remember when I was much younger; I aspire to be a professional tennis player because I spent about 4 hours a day 4 times a week playing tennis. During that time, I got pretty serious with tennis that I wanted to represent my state but in a turn of an event, I find myself sitting in front of a group of audiences playing the saxophone. With a couple of friends, we reminded one another the goal of being the saxophonists in Malaysia. We played 3 times a week averaging about 4 hours each time we met.


My tennis buddies: Nouras, Hasrin, Kabi (doubles partner), Wilkinson, Anand and Myself


However, as we grow older, I got accepter to a university 8 hours away from home, Kenny was studying Multimedia designing and Kwan Yee was just getting started as a sale rep with a pharmaceutical company. Even though all of us kept in contact and continue playing in the same band, this was the beginning where we would go our separate ways. I quit UMK after semester to apply to SUA because I realized that I could not just live my life aimless to the wimp and fancy of society. I realized that each one of us has a lifelong quest to fulfill. I cannot just live by each day knowing that I could have changed my situation.

This is how The saxophone section looks like when we were all still young. May be not all of us but most of us. *Haymin, hint hint*

(Right: Chee Hong, Kwan Yee, MeiHwa, Kenny, Me, HayMin,Wei Sung, Wai Lik, Sai heng, Lai Wah)

The crazy saxophonists. I doubt that this sort of opportunity would ever come again and I am glad I was part of this craziness.

(Right:Szi Suan, Me, Kenny and Kwan Yee)

When I left for the States, my environment changed for the better. I have this opportunity to chase the wilders dreams anybody could think of and the only person who could stop me was myself. When I went back for the summer, I felt alone and left out. I was not really close to anyone back in Malaysia nor did I belong to a really close knitted group of friends. While studying in the US, I was having the time of my life, travelling round the world, absorbing experiences where most people are only able to read in books or magazine, and these experiences have definitely changed my views on the meaning of living a fulfilling life.

Now, my friends from the class of 2011 will be graduating in less than 3 weeks. I am feeling kind of depress and sad. Do not get me wrong. I am happy for the class of 2011, but being your RA was such an amazing experience that I felt kind of a shame of myself for not wanting to be your class RA in the first place. The friends that I have made while getting to know each one of you slightly better really made me appreciate even more my education and stay at Soka. Your class has tried your very best to include me in every activity that you guys have organized. You are always so thoughtful. I am extremely disappointed knowing that I will not be able to attend your graduation or to celebrate the end to your wonderful experience at Soka but you can be sure of one thing, I will always treasure the friendship that we have.

With the class of 2011... SUA is definitely going to be different without you guys around.

My group of partying out going girlfriends.. Jolie, you organize the best parties!!!
(Clockwise: Jolie, Michelle, Katie, Nimsy, Yumi, Alex and Myself)

The night of winter formal. A few of us pregamed before attending the winter formal. In honor of the Senior class, I wore blue.
(Right: Katie, Riri, Jolie, Ellyssa, Julius and Me)

This group of friends is where I would usually share my problems with. Thank you for listening to me throughout the years. All of you have been such wonderful friends.
(Right: Anna, Jenny, Liz, ChoyShin, Chacha and Me)

As much as we would like things to remain the same, life is a constant flux. Each of us have a different path in life and as painful as it may seem, we might not cross path again but I find comfort in knowing that we at least did enjoyed each other’s company in the past. It is time to move on. Thank you for being a part of my life.